The downfall to working in healthcare

Is that people are always sick, always hurt, and always need caring after. Kolt is working tonight (Christmas Eve) and the next two nights. He was supposed to work last night as well and got called off, and for that I am very grateful. We made caramel covered bugles and watched a movie. I just really wish he could be here on Leila's first Christmas eve.

We went shopping for her yesterday to get her a present from Grandma. I wanted to get her a gloworm but was afraid it would be impossible to find one this close to Christmas. Well, we happened to find one in a random spot on a shelf far away from where it was supposed to go. I snatched it up so quickly! I eventually found out where they were supposed to go and they were out, so we were SO lucky.

Kolt and I talked about not really getting Leila anything because at this age she just really doesn't need much and we have so little space as it is we don't want to feel any more crammed than we are. Well, that didn't work out so well. We found three other toys that we just had to get for Leila. One of them is a cookie monster that talks when you shake him....it's HILARIOUS. I think we ended up buying him more for us than Leila, we can't stop laughing when we play with him. We also found a teddy bear that reads "The Night Before Christmas." We pushed the button to start him talking and Leila could not stop staring at him. She was truly mesmerized. I had told Kolt I wanted to buy a copy of the book and make it a tradition to read it to her before bed on Christmas Eve, and found that instead. I didn't want to insist on buying it, so after he finished the story I went and got in line. Kolt stood there, staring at it, and picked it up and brought it to check out. How that man LOVES his little girl. He will buy her anything she wants as she has him wrapped around her little finger.

I plan on playing the teddy bear tonight with her, in front of the Christmas tree and I will video it and upload it on here. Watching Leila hear the story for the first time was truly like watching Christmas magic and spirit pour into her. I will never forget the look on her face....I'm so glad we bought the bear.

We plan on skyping with our families tomorrow to try and spend some time with them. Last year on Christmas we didn't really celebrate at all because we had bought furniture and it was a huge let down. I was 6 weeks pregnant and Kolt didn't want me telling his family yet, but I did tell mine. Over all it just wasn't a great way to start off our first Christmas alone. Even though Kolt is working tonight, I am very much looking forward to our first Christmas together as a family and, to be honest, can't wait to see what I got and how Kolt likes what he got. I'm still a kid that way I suppose, and I hope that never changes.